Lately life has been about anxiety, and scheduling everything to within an inch of its life, about trying to keep up with all of the humans in my life, about trying to make time for the human in me, the soul in me, and I am striving, striving toward that goal.
Then we have the problems of the world looming in on us as a community: illness and strife in many forms. Incompetence at all levels where we would normally trust our experience and our well-being. The kinds of things that make anyone want to fundamentally question their experience and existence and purpose.
It’s exhausting.
Having said that, it’s also life-molding and life-changing. Something is happening to our synapses and our souls when we engage fully in our experience, when we learn how to draw boundaries and consider how to communicate and share in life’s great pageant. And I am learning to pray not merely over these moments but through them, to become fully aware of God’s presence in even the more difficult moments of life. It’s become most helpful for me to have a practice of meditation before, during, and after my day for when those moments get tense, or I have to think on my feet, so that when the time comes, I can, with a little nudge, see and feel and even taste God’s presence.
As we endeavor together, pray for me, and I will pray for you. Sending love out to all.